I got this
wonderful, good-hearted, open-willed question:
I'm sorry to be bothering you, I know you have little time, but your Christianity is my type of Christianity (it resembles a lot C. S. Lewis's way of seeing God), and I don't know who I can trust nowadays, so I'm posing this question in the hopes that you can help me. I'll be quick: I'm a Christian (or wanna-be Christian). I have many difficulties in dealing with God's will, especially concerning tithes, not wanting to go to church, forgiveness, and many other things. My question is this: if I ask Jesus (again) into my life, even if I don't feel like doing these things (I want to do them, but don't want to, or have no guts), can I ask him to change my heart, so that eventually I'll end up doing them (regardless of consequences)? Or to put it in a simpler way, can I become a Christian even with all this unwillingness and fear inside me? A simple 'yes' or 'no' will suffice. That's all I need. Thank you for your time, and sorry to be asking this of you,
I was overjoyed
to be able to encourage such a one--with the beautiful heart of our God: